Sunday, June 25, 2017

Packed my journal, needed to write it somewhere

Just thinking about how I need to stop putting so much into guys. Need to stop caring. Just stop trying, it hurts too much when it ALWAYS leaves me by myself. I'm never going to be the one for anyone. I'm not even someone people settle for. Just not worth it. I just want to cut off whatever fuels my desire to be with people. It just hurts. Why do I always care more than people care for me. No one wants to stick around. Not worth it. Fed up with reaching out. I always seem to want it too much. And that scares every guy i've been with. In the end we all die alone. I need to work on that. Being ok with that. No building a life. I have no idea how to build a life on my own. I don't want to. I DONT WANT TO. I'm in a canumbrum.